I had to get out, I couldn’t take it anymore. Why would I want to be in that house if all I do is get shouted at and made to work? She didn’t love me, he didn’t love me all I was was an inconvience. So it was settled, I didn’t belong here. They didn’t want me as their daughter. I just mess everything up for them. Seventeen years I’ve put up with there ‘ways’ of being upper class and respectable and to be quite honest I’d had enough. I just wanted out and that’s what I was going to do. I didn’t want to be someone else’s idea of perfect I wanted to be me. Nicole. I wanted to be Nicole. I slammed my bedroom door after yet another row with my parents over nothing. This was it, I didn’t know where I would go but it certainly was not here. I grabbed my rucksack shoving in all the clothes I could find along with essentials like my money, the keys to my old blue truck and my phone. I didn’t need that anymore so I walked over to my balcony and chucked it. A wave of relief washed over me. I was starting to feel more and more free. Putting on my hoody and coat with my scarf and my boots. I picked up my bag and went over to balcony. Chucking the rope over the edge and climbing down. This was it, addios bitches. You see my parents didn’t like my grades, my attitude and my friends. My long brown hair was tided up on my head and my soft skin looked fresh. My bluey green eyes were surounded by the smallest amount of eyeliner and my lashes were covered in mascara. I didn’t like foundation and my complextion was okay so I didn’t need it. My skinny frame was something that I admired about myself. I did have a happy bubbly attitude, just chose not to use it near those idiots. I smiled at the lounge window as I saw my mum sat on her own at the table with her head in her hands. I slowly walked over to my truck opening the door and throwing my bag to the otherside of the car and pulling our the photograph in a frame of my family. One that to me used to be happy but not anymore. I didn’t even know why. I started the car and pulled out of the drive. I saw from the corner of my eye my parents just stand at the porch not even bothering to chase me. They didn’t care. I threw the photograph out of the car making sure I drove straight over it. I had enough and I’ve finally escaped. The only floor in my plan where to next? I had about one thousands pound that I have saved up for this day. After getting out of the drive, I quickly decided that I was going to go to my friends how, Molly. She lived with her grandparents and I’m sure would be up for an adventure. She was my closest friend and someone who understood me. She too didn’t like her parents, they left her when she was little and had to live with her grandparents ever since so she’s always been there for me and I’m there for her. I pulled up at the bungalow and honked the horn. I saw her come to the window and wave before she rang me.

“It’s time molly, I left!” She said back finally and then said that she was going to get her stuff and that I’ll wait. Finally we were on our way out of here for good and it was going to be the best adventure ever. I was free from them. Turning on the radio whilst I waited for Molly, I bobbed my head singing along to some of the words. Followed by an announcement about how One Direction, a popular boy band which were going to be touring soon. Ignoring that I watched as Molly came out of her house as quietly as possible. Her dip dyed brown hair was up in a high bun and like me she was in her comfys after all we will be travelling a long way.

2:56 pm  •  19 February 2012  •  1 note

1D and JLS are like Beyonce and Rihanna. JLS are Rihanna and 1D are Beyonce. Rihanna looks good but Beyonce will always be better.

8:30 am  •  19 February 2012  •  1 note

I woke up with the biggest smile on my face ever, happy that I just had to look across and there was Harry, his chest slowly rising and going down again with his peacefully sleeping. I got up out of bed and decided I should go and make breakfast for Harry and me. Slowly putting on my dressing gown on before turning around and smiling at my boyfriend who had now turned onto his back with his arms and legs fully stretched out. I chuckled at how funny he looked. I walked over to the door and shut it behind me as I made my way down the stairs. I walked into the kitchen expecting it to be like every other morning but there he stood. There was the tall, bald man is who was titled as my dad. I couldn’t control my feeling instead I just ran up to him and engulfed him in the biggest hug ever. I had missed him, this holiday had made me realise how much I needed him to be a part of my life again.

“Why are you here?” I asked him pulling away from the hug.

“I needed to tell you something, me and Marie both need to tell you something…” I peered around and there Marie stood. For once in my life I didn’t feel the need to punch her, I simply replied to her smile by smiling back at her. She looked pleased and I know that in the past we haven’t got on but if there is one thing that I have learnt this summer is that I need my family and I need to forgive and forget. Of course I will always miss mum, she is forever with me but I need to make a new start. You need family; they are the people that love you whatever.

“What?” That is when Marie stepped forward and showed me, her hand with the ring on her engagement finger. I couldn’t breathe, I didn’t know whether to be over the moon or start crying. But I remember the vow I made to myself that I need to make this work. I needed too. So I did what I thought was best and pulled them both into a bone crushing hug. I heard dad whisper into my ear that I was back and for sure I was.

“That’s why I was odd last night, Es, I didn’t know whether they’d get here in time.” Nan said from behind me. A wave of relief went over me. She wasn’t ill, she was perfect fine. Just stressed, I over think things too much and by doing so I freak myself out. I was glad she was okay and it brought a smile to my face. After that I realised that Harry was still peacefully sleeping upstairs so I made up so excuse that I needed to get changed and exited the lounge. This was it, I thought to myself as I made my way up the stairs. I have a new life so to speak and nothing was going to mess it up this time. Me, Dad and Marie were going to be a family and Harry was going to be there for me to help me through everything. I still had Nan down here so I could come and see Mum’s grave whenever I wanted. Everything in my life was slowly falling back into place. I know Marie wasn’t anything like mum but she was there and I know she’s not perfect but who is?

As I reached the top of the stairs, I went straight to my room. Looking around I couldn’t see him, what if he’s gone? What if he’s not coming back? My thoughts were stopped as two hands came behind me and spun me around so I was now facing two beautiful jade eyes. He was here; I really shouldn’t jump to conclusions.

“I love you Es” Harry whispered into my ear.

“I love you Harry” I said back and I knew that he and I both meant it and things were going to be just fine. Things were perfect.

So, guys this is my last chapter of this fanfic:) hope you enjoyed it. I am writing another one pretty soon, so made sure you read that one too! Lots of love, Maddie! x o x o x o x o x o

5:39 am  •  18 February 2012

Tweet me @1DBOOM to be the main girl is my new fanfic, its going to be a bit different to my other one. 

9:29 am  •  17 February 2012

Me and Harry had arrived back in Seaborne at about midnight pulling up and nans and going into the house. It was really dark and I figured Nan wouldn’t notice harry being there. She’d be asleep, and couldn’t tell me off in the morning if Harry had already stopped the night. She’d get over it eventually. I rattled the keys opened the back door, pulling Harry behind me. I turned and smiled at him and he winked back at me before tripping over a chair and falling flat on his face. I pushed my lips together, trying to hold in the laughter. After a while of holding it in, I helped him up. Thank god he didn’t make much noise. I mean if he did then it would of woken her up and we’d have some explaining to do. She’s a pretty cool women a part from the fact that she dissaproves of boys in her house. She says ‘you leave them at the door’. I chuckled as that thought circled my mind. I felt a yank on my hand and I was twissled round to meant Harrys face just centimetres away from mine. He leant in and kissed my nose before I carried on leading him threw the house and up the stairs. Each step creaked a bit more each time, I could just see the worried look on Harry’s face as he tried not to make any sound. Once we got to the top, I opened the door and pushed harry in before me. The landing light flicked on and I suddenly turned round and stood infront of my now closed door. My Nan looked tired and fragile. She looked worn out, like something was playing on her mind.

“Es, what are you doing back so late?” She asked, I could tell from her voice that something wasn’t right.

“We drove through the night, can I go to sleep now? I’m so tired” she nodded and shooed me of into my room.

As I walked in I saw Harry pop he head around from the cupboard as I locked the door. I gave him a thumbs up and he came over to me, now wearing only his boxers. He engulfed me in a hug and when he felt I wasn’t hugging as strong back, he pulled away.

“Es, what’s wrong?” I looked down and started to move my feet.

“There’s something wrong with nan, she looks, she looks ill” I stopped talking some way through the next sentence and hugged me tighter than before. I didn’t need any words, I just needed him. As I lay in bed my train of thought travelled back to Nan, I just wish on my lucky star that she is ok.

1:14 pm  •  16 February 2012

Harry loaded all of our things into his car. I think the time was like midnight and I was still very tired. He had insisted on us going back to finish our holiday, I don’t even know why. I was perfectly happy in just staying where we were for the time being. I was beginning to become quite attached to Bruna, Emma and Alex. They were such lovely girls and before we left, that evening I met the girl that Zayn was crushing on. She was a model, a professional one. Her name was Kaydee, she greeted me with a smile and a bone crushing hug. Her brown hair and brown eyes suited her and her clothes were defiantly expensive. I was partly overwhelmed that all these girls wanted to befriend me but I wasn’t going to say no. I was a weird but nice feeling. Harry came over to me and kissed my forehead before opening the car door for me and gesturing me to sit in. I giggled as he shut the door behind me and walked around to get in. We started of singing random songs to keep us occupied; I wasn’t too fond of cars. The always thought too much about what could happen and not enjoyed the ride. However right now with Harry I was happy. I felt safe; we just talked about each other for the next couple of hours until we reached the service station. It was late so the was just one man at the till blinking every so often. He looked so bored, like he wasn’t even there mentally just physically. I chuckled to myself as I got out the car and walked over to Harry. I leant against the car and waited until he finished what he was doing and grabbed his hand. We walked in together to the station. It was nice; the only thing at the back of my mind was the thought of the press. What were we going to do? I don’t care anymore, I just wanted to be with him and if that meant being constantly photographed and stalked then who was I to complain? I love Harry with all my heart more than I have ever loved anyone. He was up there with my mum and the people I have loved. And I wasn’t going to lose him like I lost her.  Now that I had him with me I felt like I could take on the world, just me and him against everyone else. The door of the garage beeped at we entered. Harry went over to the snacks isle and picked up my favourite crisps. He knows me to well. This just made me smile non-stop while we went over to pay. He was so thoughtful.

“Why are you smiling like that?” Harry questioned me and we got back into the car.

“Like what?” I asked as I covered my face and tried to hide it with my hands and I leant against the car window.

“You don’t need to hide that smile, I personally love it!” Harry said as he leant over and moved my arms which were covering my face. I giggled as I opened my eyes, blinking a few times as I realised that I was now only a few inches away from the most my amazing boyfriend ever. He suddenly leant forward, cupping my face in his hands. Looking over my features a few times he pushed his lips against mine, they moved in sync and I slowly felt my stomach fill with butterflies. He tongue went across my bottom lip and I let it in. We pulled away after awhile. Just our foreheads touching both of us smiling like complete fools.

“I honestly do love you Es” Harry said and I knew for sure that he meant it.

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4:02 pm  •  31 January 2012  •  1,734 notes

“Es, I’m going out today with the boys.” My heart just sank, I wanted him to myself. Selfish as that was. “Tomorrow we can go back to Seaborne and enjoy the rest of our holiday” I was left smiling after that. Harry kissed my forehead then got out of the bed and went over the bathroom. That is when it dawned on me, I, Esme, was dating a superstar. I lay there with my hands behind my head staring at the ceiling. Figuring out the patterns, it entertained me for a while. I was just thinking things over in my head. How am I of all people so lucky? I don’t think I’ve done anything that I’ve done anything good enough for this. Harry truly does love me. He loves me. I kept going over things in my head. The future, the past and the present. But one thing is for sure is that Harry is going always be remembered by me. I finally dragged myself out of bed and went into the en suite, this apartment was really amazing. After my shower, I wrapped myself in a towel and went and sat on the bed. I could hear the other girls in the kitchen. I quickly shoved on a pair of Harry’s joggers and a hoody then wandered in there. I didn’t know what they thought of me, I just hope it was all good.

“Morning Es, Do you want breakfast?” Bruna asked me, she brushed her hair out of her face and smiled at me. I was really jealous of her looks. But what I didn’t understand is why she was being nice to me? Having friends is defiantly a different thing for me. I just needed to keep them, they seemed so nice. I nodded back at her and slowly took a seat at the table next to Alex and Emma. They smiled at me and continued to eat. I and the girls actually got on really well. We talked for ages about many things. Mostly the boys. I learned that they were all dating different boys and Zayn did in fact have a crush that was the one he was texting. I learnt that her name was Kaydee and she was a model or something. I and everyone decided to spend the afternoon shopping because right now I looked like a tramp. And there is no actual exaggeration. I helped Emma clean up after breakfast and they went to put on some more girly clothes. The girls had let me borrow some of their clothes.

The shopping trip was really fun actually, I had a nice time. The only thing that was constantly on my mind was Harry. I miss him. I am so silly, I only saw him this morning. I couldn’t help it thought because Harry is honestly the most amazing thing in my life. We were back at the apartment now and I was just on the phone to Nan telling her that I was coming home soon. She was missing me, but she was happy that everything was ok now. I missed her too. I missed Seaborne. I was still fed up of London.

To: Esme

From: Harry

Hey Es, get ready. I’ll pick you up in 10 mins, we need to drive through the night if we won’t to be at Seaborne by the morning, love you xo

This boy really did know how to make my day. He really did know me inside out.

11:44 am  •  31 January 2012

I was too intoxicated in Harry to care what happened next. He dragged me with all his power into the hotel room. I had him back, I had my Harry back. Even thinking that made me smile uncontrollably and my heart melt. I enter the upper class hotel room. It was nothing like I’d seen before whenever Dad took us on holiday we had to lodges or remote locations where I’d have to make my own fun whilst he was with Marie. Anyone could understand why I hate her so much, she ruined my family. But to think of it, if it wasn’t her it would of been the next hooker look-a-like that her saw. I shook any thoughts of them out of my head and continued to focus of the beautiful boy right in front of me. I smiled at him as we went through what was the hallway painted in a subtle cream colour with the most shiny wooden floor even. It was plain, and very long. He stopped at the end and pushed open the door. There were big windows around the room and three or four red couches in the middle of the room. This was obviously the lounge. Seven heads suddenly turned round so all eyes were on me. Harry squeezed my hand before pushing me forward.

“Hey guys, this is…”

“Esme, we know” A boy with blonde hair and the cutest Irish accent came and pulled me into a hug. This is most likely Niall; from my research I knew this. “Harry hasn’t shut up about you, I’m Niall”

“And I’m Zayn, sorry about early” He came over as well, being just as perfect as early. He shyly pulled me into a hug as well.

“I’m Louis and this is Liam” Two other boys walked up to me and pulled me into hugs. They didn’t seem the least bit bothered that I looked like a complete mess. Then I saw the girls from the lift earlier.

“Hey Esme, I’m Bruna” The girl with hazel eyes wearing the chequered shirt came over and smiled at me.  Louis came over and wrapped his arm around her waist before planting a kiss on her cheek. It was cute. They really suited each other. I mean I take it there going out from that kiss. I don’t know, shit what if I say something and make everything awkward.

“Hey everyone” I said rather shyly. I could see Harry standing at the other side of the room staring intently at me. It sort of made me uncomfortable. Maybe he realised how ugly I actually look. Before I could think of even making a run for it, the two other girls came over to me.

“Hey Esme, I’m called Emma, Niall’s girlfriend” She smiled at me and pulled me into a hug. I felt strange because I’ve never really had any friends before; everyone I have ever met made one look at me and ran a mile. These feeling were too strange.

“And I’m Alex, girlfriend of Liam. I hope we can be good friends!” This girl was beautiful. I envied every inch of her. She was just amazing, no wonder Liam likes her. He was looking lovingly at her from the couch, where they all now sat. I nodded at the girl and mimicked her facial expression so I didn’t seem rude. I didn’t know what to say, I’ve never had friends before, like I have said. Why would anyone want to be with me? I’ve only just got over the fact that Harry wants me, let alone seven other people. I looked over at the couch once more before letting my mind travel back to thinking. I wonder if they like me? What if they don’t? I looked at Zayn. He was sat by himself clicking away on his phone, I wonder if he had a girlfriend. Probably texting her. My thoughts were stopped when someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around to see Harry’s beautiful face only centimetres away from me.

“C’mon girlfriend, let’s get you changed” Girlfriend? Girlfriend? GIRLFRIEND? We’re dating again. Inside my head there was a little party happening.

12:56 pm  •  26 January 2012

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2:47 pm  •  25 January 2012

He ran towards the door, he looked as much of a mess as I did. His hair was matted and brushed out of his face. He was wearing big hoody and jogging bottoms with Christmas socks. Even when he was at his worst he looked blooming perfect. He had a huge grin on his face as he got closer to me. I know it was silly but it felt like we were from the movies I watched at my Nan’s with Harry. So many memories came flooding back to me one by one. By the time I had brought myself back to reality I was engulfed in two muscular arms. Wrapping around me keeping me safe from the world, keeping me safe from everyone. For once in my life I felt like I belonged somewhere. I snuggled my head into his chest and looked up into his eyes.

“You came, you really came. I thought I’d never see you again. I thought you hated me..” I couldn’t take it anyone. I just kissed him, more to shut him up but also to show him that I forgave him. He kissed me back and I put my arms around his neck, pulling him towards me even more. His tongue tried to enter my mouth and I let it. So we were there with our lips moving in sync for what seemed like ages. I’d missed this, I’d missed Harry. I finally pulled away and our foreheads were touching. I gazed into his eyes, the pool of jade green standing out just perfectly.

“Of course I came Harry, when I found out you left. I-I just couldn’t live with myself. You shouldn’t of left because of me. You should have enjoyed the rest of your summer. I know we didn’t end on good terms and that I have been ignoring you for a couple of days but I’ve realised something.” I took a deep breath before continuing on with my little speech to him. “I can’t live without you…” My voice trailed off as I turned my head up to see whether he was still looking at me or not. I was right he was, like I was the only girl in the whole world and that I was all that matter to him. I felt safe and wanted.

“Es, I didn’t want to leave but you, you needed space. You wouldn’t answer and this is the only other place I could go. Just hear me out. I didn’t tell you about my fame because I wanted you to like me for me, not because of who I am.”

“Harry, I love you”

“Love you too Es” The way he said my name, made me heart melt and my knees go weak.

“Come and meet everyone” What did he mean? Oh the girls and his friends. Wait, I look a mess. I froze on the spot a shook my head. I am not going to meet the rest of one direction looking like I have just been dragged through a hedge backwards. My hair was sticking out in all different directions and my make-up was now no existent. I had been crying because of all the emotions running through me, I am so happy right now.

“What’s wrong?” Harry looked down at me and grabbed my hand; intertwining our fingers. Oh dear, they fitted perfectly just as I remembered.

“I look a mess” I looked down at the ground. Fiddling with my fingers and shuffling my feet around. Harry put his hand under my chin and pushed me face up so I was now looking into his eyes.

“You’ll always look perfect to me…” That one sentence made me feel complete.

2:35 pm  •  25 January 2012

are you.. fucking.. kidding me… Louis… what is.. that.. can’t… breath.. dead

asdkdkgkgllgklgkkgklg. i can’t even.

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2:09 pm  •  25 January 2012  •  729 notes